Thursday, June 11, 2009 marks the first time I was absolutely, purposely (I think?) manipulated by my daughter. I’d gotten up early with her, changing her and dressing her in the sweetest little sundress. We’d eaten breakfast and snuggled while watching Blue’s Clues, and then I’d reluctantly dragged myself into the kitchen where I hurriedly packed my lunch for the day (because doing this at night would be far too convenient).

As I assembled my sandwich I heard her bare feet running in behind me. I turned, and there she stood: hat on her head, hands clasped in front of her, almost prayerfully. “Ow-sigh?” she said quietly, sweetly. She grinned at me as I knelt to her level. “Mumma, ow-sigh?”

So then I called in sick to work and gathered her into my arms and we spent the day outside, blowing bubbles, chasing butterflies, and eating our picnic lunch on the lush green expanse of grass on our lawn.

hat outside

I wish.

So does she, I think. Instead I really did gather her up in my arms, covered her in kisses, and promised her that we could go outside when I got home. And then I may or may not have cried my way to work, due to the fact that I had to deny the simplest request from the most important person in my life.

I haven’t cried en route to work in a while; she sure knows how to push my buttons. I’m doomed when she actually becomes cognizant of that fact.

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She’s learned to unscrew the top of her bottle and, as such, acquainted herself with the colossal mess that she can make with the milk generally contained to her bottle. It’s another nudge down the road that leads to the Land of No More Bottles; she rarely seems to really need a bottle anymore. She mostly asks for it at bedtime, then refuses to drink it. I think we’ll adjust her bedtime routine a bit, so that the fact that a bottle is not warming is no longer so obvious to her.

Yesterday she made just such a mess with her bottle, dousing her beloved Silky Blanket with milk. She did this right before her nap, and therefore Daddy simply provided the replacement Baby Silky (a duplicate blanket that’s only about 8″ square), changed her milk-soaked clothing, and put her to bed. Last night as I was getting her ready for bed, she spotted Silky Blanket in the hamper. She pointed and jabbered excitedly; unsuspecting, I grabbed it and cuddled it to my face, with the intent of teasing her a bit and engaging her in a silly tug of war: “Oh, you want me to have your Silky? Oh, thank you, you’re so nice, I love Silky… wait, you want Silky? OH! Here you are…” Back and forth, this goes on until it dissolves into peek-a-boo and giggles.

Instead… RETCH. You know what you don’t want on your face? Silky Blanket soaked in day-old, now-stiffened milk.

Needless to say, Jimmy and I have had a discussion about what constitutes Need To Know and have instituted a SOP for potentially smelly, retch-inducing messes. One that, you know, precludes me from PRESSING said mess against my FACE.

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Her talent for mimicry has moved beyond simple words. Lately I’ve noticed that, more and more, her words and phrases have become entirely appropriate for the situations she finds herself in:

“You’re okay! Okay!” or “It’s okay!” Hearing this immediately following a little trip-and-fall hazard has become common. It cracks me up everytime - our words of reassurance, comfort and encouragement have soaked in. It gives me the giddy sense that just maybe we’re doing something right after all.

“WHOA!” As she totters along, she sometimes loses her balance; she’ll often utter this phrase as she holds her arms out to steady and correct herself.

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Time just keeps flying by. Two years ago this month she was an idea, a word on a stick, a reason to avoid aspirin and alcohol. Now she is our daughter, absolutely real and noisy, growing and careening forward too rapidly for my words to keep up. I’ll borrow hers, then:

“WHOA!”



5 Responses to “miscellaneous Madeline”  

  1. Sometimes I’ll get ready for work and Jonathan will look up at me and say: “Tay wit’ me?” Ugh….breaks my heart. I got in the car one day, drove to work and cried almost the whole way.

    The cute sayings abound with him as well. If I trip or his daddy seems tired or something he says: “U otay, daddy? U otay?” It is soooo cute and adorable!

    They are an amazing blessing, aren’t they?

  2. Ugh. I think this is why I am happy to be able to work from home on my own schedule. It is so hard to leave my little one even for a few hours sometimes. Now, there are times I want to leave her and I can’t (when she is not in a good mood), but I can only imagine how hard some mornings are!

  3. 3 Jess

    OMG she is so cute. This post is beautiful and so atmospheric.

  4. 4 Shari

    I work from home and my girls still push buttons. It’s part of the mommy instinct. The good news is you can also use it to your advantage. It just takes a little practice.

  5. 5 Kami

    This morning, as I dropped G off as I do every morning, that little pouty lip came out, her eyes swelled with tears, and she wouldn’t let go as I was kissing her and trying to back out the door. And I very much contemplated calling into work. And then I cried as I drove, all alone in the car, wishing I wasn’t, wishing I was taking her right back home to snuggle some more and play. Boo.
    I always love how you seem to capture exactly how I’m feeling on any given random day. Thanks!


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